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I’m so tired. Cuddle buddy why you snore so loud?!! So tired >_

I don’t know you in person but I just want to say thank you. Thank you for your kind words over the last few months. It’s hard to explain but you somehow have a way of saying the nicest thing at my worst times. You’re such a lovely person. I try to be like you now, I try to give encouragement to everyone I can now days, even if I don’t know them.

You might not feel like you’ve done much for me but your simple kind words have had a huge impact on me. So thank you, thank you for giving me hope in those times and thank you for being the kind hearted person you are.

Thank you so many times.

And he thinks I might be gluten intolerant. He suggested I go on a gluten free diet and see how things go. If I don’t get better I’ve got to go back AGAIN and try find some other reason behind my ill health :(

I really dislike submitting work at uni that I feel isn’t good enough. And this Finance report takes the cake for not being good enough. But then every time I think something isn’t good enough I get like a fucking A on that shit. I’m so confused and I hope this essay isn’t so shit that I fail.

GRRRR

This report I’m writing is NOT worth a C grade. It is SO FUCKING SHIT.

I’M GONNA DIIIIIIEEEEEE

I’m such a nana, it’s only 2.30pm but I am so fucking tired. Gonna go home, nap, eat, come back to the library and try finish this finance assignment tonight. I highly doubt I will but I can try. So fucking tired, can’t wait to get back to my bed. -_-

I remembered something last night as I was lying in bed. I don’t know how I ever forgot it though. I remembered the night I finally met you in person, at a party in Marewa. I’d been invited by Ben and Cory, and I showed up in the hopes of seeing you with Joe and Russel in tow. There was a tramp there and I was sober driving so I wasted some time jumping on the tramp just talking smack with everyone. Then you came out of the house and jumped up on the tramp with me and I instantly said

“Hey, you’re Dawoo right?”

“Yeah”

“You’re the guy who ran into my car the other day”

“Oh shit”

And you ran away :(. And I was sad cause I thought I’d scared you away forever and I went to Joe to complain that you’d disappeared.

As the night wore on and everyone got drunker Cory and Ben began to make jokes about how each other liked me and so on. I was playing along and as you appeared again I made a joke to Cory about how I liked everyone but him and started hugging people. And I even got to hug you. And it was then that I think I kind of sealed the deal. I knew I wanted you and noting would stop me from having you from that moment.

I drove Ben and Cory home that night after there was a fight and everyone had to leave. A few weeks later we would go on our first date, a very cliche trip to the movies. It almost didn’t go ahead cause you weren’t allowed to use your mums car but I just shrugged that aside and asked where you lived so I could pick you up. After the movie we went to a friends house and hung out till about 2am. Man did your mum get angry! She raged at you so much that night about staying out late and not telling her where you were.

I remember you admitted later on that my boobs looked great that night. I wont lie, I wore that green stripped top for exactly that reason.

It’s funny the things you remember late at night. Maybe it was because I saw you yesterday. I wonder if the day will ever come when we can be friends again.